Still Searching …

From ocean to sky
Summer and Fall
I have been there though it all
From laughing and crying
to pain that comes easy
from shades of grey meaning that turn out so sweetly
i wonder when i wonder what ill find

I look up to the sun
it only hurts my eyes
maybe its the answer ive been wanting in disguise
the more you are with me
the more that im alone
i dont need the answer i already know

Subtle and grace
desperate for change
my hand moves away melt dry eyes for days
Something’s not right smiles and tantrums
hit the ground running its all over and been done
I wonder when I wonder ill find…

What happens next
we’ll stop and go
the promises has already run cold
so now you know now you know

I look up to the sun
it only hurts my eyes
maybe its the answer ive been wanting in disguise
the more you are with me
the more that im alone
i dont need the answer i already know

The Answer by Automatic Loveletter.

Hugs and Kisses

Nieya

A Friend In Need is a Friend Indeed.

Just had a Girly-Emotional-Outbust session with my dear besties Aimi Haniza in Secret Recipe Ampang Point.

Sayang, thanks for wiping my tears, lending me your ears  to listen and a shoulder to cry on.

Really appreciate it.

Feels like you’ve lighten up my burden and makes me feel a much better person.

Surely gonna missed you when you going back to Makassar …

Thanks a million Aimi dear.

Love you always babe..

Nieya

Happily Ever After ??

Can Happily Ever After ceased to Exist ?

I’ve been wondering for quite some time now..

If It does ..

When will it happen ??

I’m still waiting for the answer …

Nieya

Precious Tears

Do you have any idea what is it like when every conversation you had lead you to a broken heart ??

Tears flow through your cheek non-stops

But you are unable to tell that particular person

You don’t have the strength to stop all this

because you are aware how fragile you are on the inside.

So

Please have mercy

I have feelings too.

Me, Myself & I

Hello Readers,

Seems that I’ve been quite on hiatus when in comes to my updates. Eventually I’m doing real good in keeping my mind occupied after “tragedy” happens.  Currently I managed to get a permanent spot in one of the establish UK Oil and Gas Recruiting Company , NES GLOBAL in Menara Weld which is situated in Jalan Raja Chulan.

Me and Obaybee??

Well, we are still going through hardships and I just have to bear with it. Once he eliminates his problem then we will definitely be happy just like before. In the mean time, all I have to do is being very patience and give him all the supports he needs. Although sometimes it will end up hurting myself. But nevertheless, my strength of patience overcomes everything. No matter how deep the wound is, it seems that I will never give up on him. Love defies everything I guess… J

Me and Mummy??

Well, I’m still trying hard to forgive her, after all whatever happens its her to be blame for. But I accept it as my fate and keep believing that GOD is preparing something much better for me in the future.  It’s just that sometimes I feel disappointment in her which I can’t really deny.  But indeed I still love her after all she’s my mother, the woman who gave birth to me.

It’s hard to let go the sense of regret for not being able to go continue my studies in Wales this year. But I have to accept the fact that it has happened and i can’t do anything about it. I just have to wait this September to start my final year. In the mean time, I have plenty of time to save money and prepare myself for the upcoming year of studies … wish me luck !

Hugs & Kisses

Nieya

Still Standing…

I feel sick,

My heart is beating non-stop

It didn’t even give me a chance to take a single breath

I try to stop,

But I’m helplessly weak

The wound is getting bigger and deeper

But that doesn’t makes me slow down

I don’t want to end it unless the heart tells me so

Even though it will creates a much more deeper wound

I keep telling myself that I can do this

keeping aside my idiocracy and conjecture

I am half way through so I’m going to hold on

I’ve already decided

How about you ?

Sweet 16

Wishing you

Happy 16th Birthday

Intan Syahirah

My beloved sister

Thanks for being with me through all the hardships I’ve been through

Loving you always.

Mummy’s Birthday Treat  at Cozy House in Great Eastern Mall

Loving you always.

Hugs & Kisses

Nieya

Wishing you, Love

Wishing you Happy 2years couple Anniversary obaybee

Thanks for being with me thru thick and thin

&

Happy 22nd Birthday

Trivikram Jenze

My one and only Baby Love

Loving you always

xoxo

nieya

My Loyal Friend, “Patience”

What would you do, if everything that you owned fades away bit by bit?

They have left you naked, you are not able to feel love, no hope to despair, no temper to lose, no joy & happiness to show and share,

They used to filled your empty heart but now there’s nothing left..

The only one that left in your empty heart is the sense of regret.

Regret for trying so hard, Regret for letting people in, Regret for the sacrifice, Regret for not be able to take it back.

You can see how loyal Regret is…

It begins with a chapter full with curiosity, temptation and joy

Then it continues with love, hardwork and happiness

But the ending seems to be so unreal

As everything and everyone vanished as though the existence never happen

But then patience comes in,

She’s trying to persuade me telling me that everything is going to be ok

Everything is going to be fine

I sigh and wonder

Whether this is just another game to keep me holding on

I dreamt of Patience, and she is indeed very strong

“My Love, time will settle everything”

She assured me one thing,

Happiness will soon be by your side again

Should I trust her?

Should I reconsider?

What if she runs away like everybody else?

What would I do then?

Do I have to take this risk?

If I do, the only thing I have to do is wait..

But will the waiting be worthwhile?

Can Happily Ever After ceased to exist in the end?

I wish I could find the answer…

But if I can’t I just wish that

I can vanish into a thin air like everybody else..

Therefore, there won’t be any regrets.

But still,  Patience will always be with me.. I trust her..

xoxo,

nieya

The Answer

I try to find the answer

The reason why i let myself bleeds

the rationale behind the suffers

I guess I just know the answer

nieya