I always had the thought to deactivate my WordPress accounts.  Writings used to be my passion, sharing and having the thought that strangers from all over the world read what i wrote makes me feel that “me” being heard. But ever since i starts living into adulthood i find less time to explore and maintaining my passion in writing. All the thoughts i had seems to fade away unknowingly. Having no compassion of what people thought of “Me” is a bless at first. But somehow as time passed I feel that the reality had been “ME” secluded without being heard. I have become invisible to certain people, and surprisingly to those whom I used to share-plates-with.

Adulthood is a phase where people like me will have millions of excuses not to venture into it. Why? Because we are scared. It happens because we have been pampered by our parents responsibilities where whatever we need has been prepared for, money-clothes-cars-fuel-etc . My first adulthood task? Earning Money a.k.a Working.

I have to admit, adulthood was being introduced to me when i was unprepared. The time where I had no idea what I might get myself into. But each time the clocks ticks, each time that puny-hands making its 360 circles in that clock a new adventure begin where it will end with a lessons and become a valuable experiences. Therefore it is not an easy task, but as long as you have people that you love to fall back into, they who will continuously supporting you, strength is rechargeable. Forcing you to move on to end the chapter and starts writing a new introduction in the next chapter. Whether in the end it is going to be a happily ever after or another character died? it is wholly up to you. Your life, your book, your introduction and your endings.

Until then, I will try to keep writing and carved wonderful images on that chapter. If another route ends with a cliff, we can always take a step back, and change to another route eventhough we have no idea where the route will takes us as long as we are ready for the upcoming test.

That is Life.

nieyaheartsvanilla

My heart was wounded deeply

deeply enough that it will take years to heal

But I’ll be waiting

Because you deserved a second chance.

nieya

Dear Love,

I’m sorry for not being able to plant a new one in my heart

Its hard for me to deny, I’m still reserving it for the special someone.

A person who already planted in this heart before,

Eventhough he didnt realised he water it with acid instead of water that one fine day

it did bleed and wounded me deeply.

People made mistake

God gave people a second chance to pick up that lesson and live through it to make it better

Thus,

I wouldn’t mind waiting.

Waiting for you to cure my wound and make it better once more.

As long as I still have the strength

I will be waiting.

There’s a song that’s inside of my soul.
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again
I’m awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you’re my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you’re my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I’m giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I’m giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you’re my only hope.

I guess everybody would love to control time, where we can amend our past, present and future

With one click, we can undo all the mistakes we’d made.

Perhaps,

Our life won’t  be stumbling up and down

A constantly happy life, which everyone would be eager to have one.

But if we’d given this enormous power

Then we won’t be able to learned the mistakes we made

& move on cautiously after learning the lessons.

Life would be dull & boring

So, I have no regrets of what happening to me in the past !
Life have so many journey and we could enlightened ourselves with a chapter taken by the different route with lessons we’d learned.

Therefore, I’m tired of thinking that I can make this thing over.

Rewind the clock and undo my mistakes.

Cause its totally an absurd and ridiculous concept homo-sapiens can ever think of

as It Will NEVER Happen!

Just Move On without feeling any regrets

Yours till Strawberry Marshmellow

Nieya

Someday everything will all make perfect sense

So for now

laugh at the confusion

smile through tears

&

keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason